Seeing as you have been so patient with my development, as well as my blog's, I would like to give you a little more insight of the woman on the other side of the screen. If you're not interested, please disregard.
In the last few months, I have experienced many changes; all of which left me either an emotional basketcase, spontaneously blissful, vulnerable, responsibly irresponsible, or dead broke. My sister has gotten married (Still, wow.) & our relationship is constantly strengthening, I landed an amazing position working with kids, and a vast chapter in my life has, since, passed but with it came an overwhelming, positive outlook on my life & future. It's funny how one becomes so adjusted to the smoke that they only realize they couldn't see 10 steps in front of them until the smoke has cleared. And although my future is not completely visible, it is becoming clearer. Until then, I am taking all of the necessary steps to ensure I am ready to hit the ground running. I, once, heard that luck is when preparation meets opportunity.
I am bursting at the seams with motivation and enthusiasm. Lately, I've been inspired by absolutely everything; a very invaluable feeling. I'm learning how to channel my emotions, rather than bottle them, to accept my quirky flaws as a component of my character, and to accept responsiblity even if it is that of someone else. Why, yes. I am high off life (fuck it, I'm wasted).
I find that I laugh too loudly, I'm only sociable when it is convenient for me, I take people for granted, I'm almost always pessimistic, and that I am too impatient with those who do not think the way I do.
So.What.
I have tried new things, spoke to new people, expanded my horizons, done things I would normally refuse to do, walked aimlessly, smiled without purpose, and have opened up to more people in the last 3 months than I have done in 5 years.
I'm on this whole "PRO-LIFE" kick; which can make me pretty annoying from time to time. No, I'm not always optimistic or in high spirits but I am always genuine and looking forward. I'd like for you to be a part of my journey.
I recently purchased what has become one of my most impactful purchases. Once used as a coping mechanism, it quickly grew into an entirely new approach to life & gaining what it is I am seeking.
It reminds me, on a daily basis, to sever the ties that bind me. It is never too late to rebuild burned bridges, forgive, forget, accept, rekindle, restart, or redo. Personally, professionally, emotionally, scholastically, whatever.
Find the beauty in every day, my friends.
Signed,
ChangeIV
